I don’t recommend doing something crazy merely for sake of doing something crazy; that’s not what pursuing a God-given vision is about. But if you’re going to do something the world counts as foolish, it has a way of creating a blank canvas for God to paint something.
There were plenty of days I’d berate myself for going after this, for thinking God was in this. Shame can be a loud voice. It’s not God’s voice though. I’d tell myself that if I hadn’t pursued this art thing that student loans would be paid for, I’d have a career that wasn’t such a strain, we’d be living in a house, we would have had the time and money to start a family sooner, and so on. Thing is though, even on the days I resented hope, resented this dream, felt like a failure, I still deep down couldn’t deny there was this small flicker of hope that fueled the faith that God was indeed working something to His purposes in us and through us—that there was purpose in this.
Being half completely analytical and half dreamer is having thoughts that are always at odds with one another. I like long-range thinking—looking at a scenario and seeing what foundations could be built now that will matter later, that will be strong later.
For that, I don’t like looking like that person. You know the one—the one whose head is in the clouds and is oblivious to what’s right in front of his or her face. I know I risk looking like that sort of person when I make decisions that are rooted in a faith that believes for things that aren’t visible, but every new thing really was made out of that which wasn’t visible.
It’s a principle we see in the beginning of all new life. Brand new things start out not being able to be seen with our physical eyes.
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