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Reminders: Trading in Anxiety

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Long and late hours went into simultaneously building a business and, when things seemed dismally bleak or my husband’s job was being threatened on the chopping block once again, applying for more jobs. A baby on the way, at long last those applications turned into interviews because I’d finally gained enough “gainful” experience to look valuable in an employer’s eyes. To make light of my previous and unrelated experience, I made my resume into an illustrated infographic including descriptions of my time as a barista, a contract painter, and a custodial worker.

Barista—Making lattes, hanging my head out a drive-thru window, crying over onions, washing dishes, and maintaining good nature with caffeinated customers. “Would you like whip cream with that?”

Contract Painter—Death-defying ladder acrobatics whilst doing residential and commercial painting jobs for new construction as well as pre-existing locations.

Custodial Worker—Cleaning the “loo” and various other maintenance-related tasks.

It was simultaneously really exciting and heart-sinking as I made it past the initial round of interviewing for a job that was looking so promising and (for the first time) actually near my husband’s job. It was such a great opportunity—a lead in-house design role overseeing brand management across several platforms, but my heart sank thinking how much of our little one’s firsts that I’d miss in such a hectic, away-from-home job when it had seemed that that was supposed to have been a perk of working from home—seeing those moments.

The timing felt like a bit of a slap.

Why was this working out now and not before? In a funny twist, the thing I hadn’t wanted to do—starting a business so young—had over the years become the thing I really wanted to succeed in. It felt like failure that my company wasn’t making more money than it was. I came so close to getting the job, and then someone with more experience in a similar past role got the position. I really think I’d have liked and done well in that job, but there was also some relief as well when my husband’s job ended out changing to a different location. I made plans to wrap up projects and prepare for transitioning to what it would be like juggling being a mom and an entrepreneur.

This is part 15 of 31 in a personal story participating in the Write 31 Days Challenge. To start at the beginning or to see all the posts in order, click here. If you want to follow along, follow on social media or subscribe as a reader to Eclectic Affinity.

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Jacquelyn Arends

Graphic designer + Illustrator + Entrepreneur // Owner of Charm Design Studio; blogging at Eclectic Affinity

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